Friday, April 28, 2017

Day 30 of 30 Days of Brave: I AM BRAVE

Fear is Temporary, Regret is Forever

Okay, so I didn't write every day for the 30 Days of Brave Challenge but I wasn't just sitting on my butt either. Some days were better than others but I did commit to doing at least one micro-act of bravery a day.

I'm starting to put myself out there more. I'm being more active in my work with my husband. I'm working and fine tuning the details to bringing more balance and happiness into my life. I haven't missed a single pole fitness class. There is still work to be done but this has been a good starting point.

My end goal wasn't as clear as I would have liked it to be. Perhaps I just wasn't sure what it was supposed to be. In the end this has been a great experience and I plan on doing it again. This weekend I have Sci-Fi on The Rock 11 to attend, it will be my first ever convention and I am so excited.

Come Monday, a new month, my birthday month, I will take on my second 30 Days of Brave. I will take the time before then to hone in on my goal. There are so many things I want to do. I now feel more capable and motivated and encouraged to get things rolling and continue to grow and love myself more.

Thursday, April 13, 2017

Day 15 of 30 Days of Brave: I AM RESOURCEFUL

One Step at a Time

It's day 15. It's usually around this time when I start to burn out, which I kind of have. This is the time to light a fire under my butt to keep me going. These 30 days of Brave are only the beginning. I have so many things I want to accomplish that I tend to get overwhelmed and I don't know where to start. I tend to lose sight of my goal.

It's easy enough to say that I should simply start with one step. The problem is, which direction do I take that step in. Once that step is taken I have another series of possible options for the step following that one. And so it continues on and on.

From the ABC Guys

I just finished reading this book. Easy to read 95 pages of truth. The fact of the matter is that I have to map out my journey or of course I'm going to feel overwhelmed and taken aback. Mapping things out doesn't necessarily mean that all will go according to plan but at the very least you can take those steps with more confidence and a clearer view of where you're trying to get.

The book's goal setting strategy focuses on getting rich but the beauty of it is that it can be applied to any type of goal I want to set. I just need to take the time to plan out my journey. As long as I'm conscious that road blocks and detours are inevitable I should be fine. I'll at least know the key stops I need to make. Above all, I need to enjoy the ride. The best way to do that is not having to worry about the journey at every upcoming turn or fork in the road.

Sunday, April 9, 2017

Day 11 of 30 Days of Brave: I AM COMPASSIONATE

Quick Update

I've been busy during days 9 and 10 of the 30 Days of Brave Challenge. I'm doing more work and every day getting more motivated with doing things that make me happy and will ultimately benefit the life I truly want to lead.

Days 9 and 10 were all about being vulnerable and curious. I am a naturally curious person so that isn't too hard to work with. It's all about asking "Why?" to get to the root of issues, both with myself and those around me. This will help me out in my professional life, my personal life and my creative life. I'm all for it.

Being vulnerable is a bit more tricky. Putting myself out there on my blog to the Internet is not bad because I still have control. I decide what and how much to put out into the world. I have the benefit of thinking about what I'm going to say before I say it. Being vulnerable one-on-one is a bit more of a task. But maybe I can work on that through storytelling and poetry.

In St. John's there are Storytelling circles and open poetry nights. I haven't yet gone to one because I'm afraid of going by myself. I guess this is where day 11 comes into play.

Letting Fear Fade Away

Today I had my third pole fitness class and I love it just as much as I did the first time, probably more. I'm getting braver and more compassionate with myself. I didn't feel as scared when I went upside down into the handstand with the pole this time. No picture this week but I'll remember that for next time.

It's such a fun and accepting atmosphere. Erica, the instructor is awesome and she does an awesome job of making her students feel comfortable and safe. The confidence that I can gain from this experience I want to use in the rest of my daily living. Talking to strangers shouldn't be scary, it's the only way I'll meet more worthwhile people and make new friends.

I feel good. A bit tired after this week but good. I'll do my best to take advantage of the coming days in my continuing journey of being a more authentic and braver me.

Thursday, April 6, 2017

Day 8 of 30 Days of Brave: I AM CAPABLE

Wait! What about Day 7?

Day 7 was all about being the hero of your own story. The day slipped through my fingers as I was intensely focusing on work and then went out with my husband and some colleagues for wings. I tried to lead my life that day with a positive and determined attitude while being in the moment (day 4). However, I didn't have time to blog about it.

No worries, tomorrow is another day. In the past, I would have felt bad missing a day and feeling like I somehow failed, but shit happens, right? Life sometimes gets in the way and not necessarily in a negative sense. I was determined not to use that as an excuse to stop updating my blog, so here I am!

Water someone else's seed of intention.

Throughout the whole challenge, you are always looking to work towards achieving your end goal. The daily e-mails give you thoughts to contemplate and affirmations to remind you of your potential and motivation.

Today's task included encouraging someone else who you feel is highly capable, and helping them see in a clearer light that they have everything it takes to reach their goal. I chose to encourage and help my partner in crime: Bruce, my pretty awesome hubby.

He knows he always has my support but I felt like today I could really take some time and help him organize his jumbled and confused thoughts. We game planned and we both went away with a clearer idea for the month ahead. It felt good that I had helped him and I knew that now I had to come up with my own strategizing plan. 

"You must give everything to make your life as beautiful as the dreams that dance in your imagination." -Roman Payne 

I'm feeling good today. My activity has been up in different parts of my life and I don't feel like I'm at a standstill anymore. There's still a ways to go and I know everything won't always be perfect, but I will work hard through those days especially so I can get to the place I want to be as soon as possible, with purpose and enjoying myself along the way.

Tuesday, April 4, 2017

Day 6 of 30 Days of Brave: I AM PREPARED

"If you don’t know where you are going, you might not get there." -Yogi Berra 

Today's task is all about honing in on the end goal. I felt, a bit stuck on this one. What exactly is my end goal supposed to be? I know it doesn't have to be monumental or even particularly important. The trouble is that there are so many things I want to be doing: I want to get stronger to achieve polefitness awesomeness; I want to create more art (writing, drawing, painting); I want to better help out my husband financially and in our business; I want to meditate more; I want to try to be more social; I want to be more active with Arya ... the list goes on and on.

So what do I focus on for the remaining 24 days? How do I choose just one? Which one will benefit me the most?

Looking back on the goals I've written I do find that they have a common thread. At the end of the day, I really just want to feel good about myself. So maybe that should be my end goal. For this particular challenge anyway. I can then give those separate goals their own focus once I have things better organized in my mind.

Let's Break it Down


I have 24 days left in my 30-day goal to feeling good about myself.
Which means within two weeks, I need to start practicing a routine that keeps me motivated and productive.
Which means in a week, I need to put the routine into practice so I can work out the bugs.
Which means in the next three days, I need to have a routine and priorities list set in place.
To hit that 3-day goal, today I need to blog about my intentions.

The great thing about writing is seeing my thoughts on paper, or in this case, on screen. I get the chance to step back and see what is really there. It's a way to get out of my mind and be more objective with my options.

That's why writing is awesome.

Spring time in Newfoundland ... not so awesome.

Monday, April 3, 2017

Day 5 of 30 Days of Brave: I AM ENOUGH

"I will share the story of who I am, with my whole heart, by letting myself be deeply seen."

This is sometimes very hard for me. I don't always feel like I'm enough and when I feel like I'm not doing enough I tend to freeze and not do anything at all. I have the potential to be who I want to be but at the same time not willing to fail. But as wiser people before me have said in some way or another: you can't succeed in anything without the risk of failure and actually failing at least a hundred dozen times along the way.

I tend to hide away from the world, so letting myself be "deeply seen," is a very scary concept. Yet, I understand its importance and the value of it. Maybe I hide away because that's where I am least afraid of being who I am. Or when I don't feel like I'm enough, it's the safest place to feel that way.

Today's affirmation is very important and one I need to repeat several times. I am enough. My feelings and emotions are valid, even if in the moment, there are people who don't understand them. I need to allow myself to feel them in that moment and then let them go.

Saturday, April 1, 2017

Day 3 of 30 Days of Brave: I AM SELF-AWARE

Today's Brave Act

What does it mean to be self-aware? It's knowing who I am and understanding my strengths and weaknesses while not beating myself up over them. I've realized that loving someone doesn't mean that you see them as a perfect being, in fact if you really do love them, you are very aware that they are far from perfect. Everybody has strengths and weaknesses and understanding the good and the bad about myself will help me better maneuver my life.

I can't lead a life following the rules somebody else sets for me. By being self-aware, I will know the best way to face future challenges and reach the goals I want to conquer.

What is my biggest strength?

I listen and observe. I like to listen, hear everything that's being said, organize it in my mind and then speak if I so choose to do so. I appreciate beauty and will sometimes see beauty in unconventional ways and objects. I like that I don't always see the world like everybody else does. Although I do admit, sometimes it can be a bit unsettling but I wouldn't change it for the world.

What is my biggest weakness?


I can burn out easily. This is why finding things that I am passionate about is important to me. I also benefit from practicing things that will keep me accountable. If I am completely on my own, my own excitement and motivation can run out much quicker than I would like them to. This is something that I hope to work on during these 30 Days of Brave.

"What is necessary to change a person is to change his awareness of himself."



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